CONFRONT IT

At some point last year I started to put on too much weight, now weight gain in some sense may be a good sign, but in my own case it wasn’t, it got so bad that if I smiled you probably won’t be able to see my eyes, now  Yoruba women like my mom and her friends were very happy about it, they’ll pass comments like ahan I never knew you could even be this fat you look so fine oh” since very few people complained I kept up with what was making me so fat.
         Now here’s why I was putting on so much weight; I had a little bit of a situation, it wasn’t a naturally big problem but it was a very awkward and uncomfortable one for someone like me, I wouldn’t say what the problem was but I can say it was very minor and if I wasn’t so chicken it wouldn’t have cost me so much to confront it but I was too chicken so I had to work to forget the issue, I tried several things to get it out of my mind but I couldn’t seem to, until one night I tasted heaven, my “demon” (problem) crossed my mind again and while it was  trying to haunt me I got up and ate chocolate and biscuit and for the first time in a while I wasn’t thinking about my problem I was in ecstasy eating my chocolate and biscuit and by the time I was done eating that I was too tired so I drifted off to sleep, I had discovered a way to run from my problem, so whenever my demon arose I’ll eat, but the problem is the “demons” seemed more active at night so every night I’ll eat not less than 6 packs of biscuit and chocolate so I won’t have to face my “demons” I continued this way until one day; my dad decided to visit me at school he couldn’t hide his shock about how fat I had become, before he left he said;  “you had better find something to do about that fat swollen face oh, you don’t even know how you look”!! I almost cried. I told my friend about my fat situation and she told me that eating at night caused people to get fat, so I decided not to eat but to take sleeping pills at night. The first night was a total disaster, I couldn’t sleep I needed food. I grown from using food to cover my fracture to being addicted to mid night eating, I had to get up and eat, but I avoided anything really fattening, I just ate crackers and took orange juice.
    In the end I had three things to deal with first my main issue, second my fat and third my mid night snacking, funny enough I actually got over my main problem more easily than I got over the other two, It took me most of last year and very little into this year to get over my mid night snacking (honestly I still fall into that temptation once in a while) and my weight is a lot more stable now. This is what happens when we decide to keep running or hiding when we are faced with tough situations most times we end up with some solitary addictions, food, porn, drugs, sometimes we even keep so busy we don’t even have time to even know ourselves, and sometimes we just get so frigid we keep even those closest to us out of our lives.. It’s time to stop running away from issues that are hard and uncomfortable. It’s time to confront issues in your life.
Love always
Busayo Kehinde