Sometime last month I returned from class
really thirsty, I didn’t care to look around me for water i immediately asked
my roommate if she had any water, she said she didn’t, I checked my purse and realised
I didn’t have any money in it, I tried to remember what I did with the last
money I had in there couldn’t remember so I had to borrow money from my roommate to buy water, I
went to get water lo and behold the room where they sold water was locked, I
was too thirsty to wait for these who sold stuff there to return so I started
the journey in search of water I went two block ahead i couldn’t get, I came
back and went two blocks behind my block and I didn’t get either I returned to
my room a little sad but mostly frustrated! On getting to my room I lay on my
bed almost depressed and let my eyes wander on its own accord somehow I strayed
to my table and on it were three sachets of water, smh I can’t even describe the pain I felt in
that moment! First I became a beggar I had to beg for 10 naira, after the
begging I became a wanderer like Cain; all because I needed the water I already
had in excess. How pathetic!
It’s
not limited to just me it’s how a whole lot of us are, I’m just the sacrificial
lamb sharing my story. Last year I did the Dear Boaz series on the blog (if
you’ve not read that you should totally check the archives), the last piece I
did there was the story of how the writer eventually met her partner, he turned
out to be someone she’d been really close to someone she’d shared her most
confidential stuff with, someone who’d even set her up on dates and hooked her
up with guys. Its how a lot of us really are, we realise or feel like we need
something we fail to look around us, we fail to see those things inside us
we’re up and quick to go out, to search, to hustle, and stuff. Worse is we come
back frustrated, depressed, unfulfilled and unsatisfied fact is we can never
be. I’m not sure what it is for you that you’ve been looking out for some
singles its possibly a partner and you’ve been looking all out but your partner
could be that person you’re so yourself with the one you gist and gossip with
about everything, your work buddy, the person next door and you’re busy
travelling all over west Africa to attend every wedding and party hoping he’ll
be there (take it easy oh! Ebola is real lol oh and not every close
friend/neighbour is your potential partner you friend zone worse still
brother/sister zone oh! Hold me for what
i wrote and not what you understand :D) for some of us its stuff we really want to do
and we feel we need money so we’re out looking for who’s just gon come drop a
million dollar at you feet. Really!
My bible tells me that God has given to me all I need for life and
Godliness, what this means to me is every single thing I need to live, to live
right, to enjoy life, to achieve my dreams, to succeed, to be happy and to be
godly has been made available and in locked up in me by God all I need do is
look inside of me, there’s something in me if I use would give me all the money
I need to live, there’s people around me I need in my life but I’m too busy
looking out for a knight in shining armour (who puts on a shinning amour sef)
and if I don’t look closely I’d pass up on everything I need just cos I’m too busy looking out.
Just before you look how ‘bout you look in.
Lots
of love
Busayo Kehinde
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